Even though the way I do things may seem unsavoury to others, it's my choice. I'm no mule who doesn't listen; I do. It's just that I have my own reasons, as much as you have yours. If I fall or fail, I will have myself to blame... and to learn from it. Despite your assumption that I did not think things thoroughly, I did. With homework to the boot.
Sometimes I wish you could just trust my judgement more. Let go a little more.