Friday, August 29, 2008

Lumps in the carpet

Everytime you sweep unresolved issues under the carpet, meant to be forgotten... you forget that i'll forever be tripping over these lumps in life.

This is my friggin' carpet!!! Stop adding lumps because I cannot remove it. But you can.

 

And I'm waiting for the day that I know will never come.

Until then, I will never be truly happy. This is my premonition for myself.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Whoever said 3D artists have no fun....

... needs to do some rethinking desu.
 
Courtesy of Mr Longman who kindly created this in my computer while I was away. And left it there for everyone to see wtf.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Forgetting the ultimate heroes

Lee Chong Wei is getting a Datukship. Well, he won an Olympic silver medal for Malaysia. Made us proud (despite the final match being somewhat orz....). Datuk Lee Chong Wei? Awesome. Congratulations.
Not Olympic medal ;___;

I have utmost respect for athletes. Being a former volleyball player, I sort of understand the willpower, dedication and sacrifice needed to push yourself to the best you can be. The training to get to -that- point can be a heck of a torture, to your mind and body. It's not easy; people would say, that the sky is the limit! But in this case, we're simply human beings with limits (unless you take happy sports drugs wtf). Sometimes you just worry whether your super aching limbs will give way with your sports 'career' as the possible expense.

Therefore it's only fair to award these people for what they deserve.

Which brings me to this point....is Malaysia forgetting about Misbun Sidek and his brothers?

I just happened to be discussing this with my colleagues when we were eating dinner together. So, I'm not being random, okay.

Chong Wei has only been in the badminton scene for 4 years, but Misbun has been in it for wayyyy longer than that. Until today, we have yet to win a Thomas Cup since Misbun's time. Even though he has technically retired from personally winning medals for this country, he still IS winning medals by training the future athletes of Malaysia.

I remember my favourite comic when I was in primary school was the 'Anak-anak Sidek' series. Damn nice, okay! Their antics, their nakalness, their strict father, their hardship and their love to 'lastic' lizards off their wooden house (<-- not recommended wtf)... made me laugh and wait impatiently for the next book. It's so enjoyable and Malaysian youths can relate to it (it was a hot buy in my school then).
During that time, my brother and me damn gungho played badminton until we were tanned like we're not our mother's children wtf. I could still remember my Po Po scolding us hahahah. In school, it was some of my friends' favourite sport as well. So in a way, they have instilled the love of the sport in us. It's just not right. This country owes him a recognition of appreciation.
Malaysia needs to hug Misbun like how CW is hugging him wtf

I recall vaguely that there were some conflicts between the Sidek brothers and Badminton Assos. of Malaysia or something like that la... but it's just strange that a somewhat fresh-on-scene badminton player would be awarded a Datukship over someone like Misbun. Don't tell me he KO-ed only they give the title because it'd be really -____-;.

I wonder if anyone else found this strange. Have yet to read this week's papers, so I have no idea.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Badminton Showdown, Retail Therapy and the usual randomness....

I was watching the badminton match between Chong Wei and Lin Dan. Was sitting in front of the telly feeling jittery and my dad kept commenting on how he WILL lose... wtf not the best time to tell me that when I'm hoping so much. I kept hoping Lin Dan will 'Ling Tan' (get zero) wtf.

I don't like Lin Dan simply because he is damn cocky weh. But I guess it happens when you're that awesome in badminton -____-;. Chong Wei had the super skills, but no confidence, which explains the lack of attack. You got to the finals!! Have more faith in yourself!

Maybe they should had someone to put him in the 'zone' before walking out on court (That's what my cousin's volley ball team did; have the athlete lie down with their eyes closed, while someone talks to them in a way that they have no fear or won't get influenced so easily by the crowd etc)

Speaking of which, why did Misbun's face look so glum even before LD started scoring -____-;. I feel damn demoralised when I see his face wtf.

Anyway, Chong Wei's the man! Malaysians everywhere are proud of him~

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Crap.

If there is a word to describe my sense of being now, or at least, the growing feeling within, it would be bimbotic.

Don't ask me about my current sudden obsession with makeup. (I friggin' curl my lashes these days okay!)
Don't ask me why my body seems to gravitate towards cute stuff.
Don't ask me why my eyes go sparklesparkle when I see cute stuff... like feeling awwwwwwww-i-want-i-want when I saw a pink Nintendo DS or Sony's pink laptop.

Cosmetics obsession started from a simple premise. I just happened to be depressed. Ooohhhh, what's that? Depressed? No fear! Retail therapy mood is here!!! wtf. And somehow I ended up in cosmetic shops like skinfood, elianto and sasa.

Being in a secluded "city" is no excuse either... especially in the internets worldz, where you could shop online and poslaju/pos express is your saviour. For about a week, Lowyat's Stuff for Ladies marketplace was where I was at, yo'!!

A bit paiseh to write these down my purchases but what the hell;

1) Maybelline Volume Express Waterproof Mascara
2) Orca eyeliner pencil
3) Lioele BB beyond the solution 10ml
4) Elianto eyebrow pencil (which I use as eyeliner wtf)
5) Elianto Nourishing Lip Balm (?)
6) Elianto Cream Concealer
7) 88 Color Eyeshadow Palette (I haven't seen it yet because it was mailed to my parents' place.... I can't wait to play around with it when I go back this weekend!)(<-- macam main dengan mom's make-up... nostalgia.... hahaha)

See number 3? I stumbled into a thread selling BB creams and somehow it was fascinating...

What is BB Cream?
BB stands for Blemish Balm. It was first designed by German to soothe and conceal the skin of people who underwent laser skin surgery. It contains healing ingredients to protect recovering skin and at the same time provides coverage of the blemish skin. Korean celebrities use BB cream to look radiant ( ...because they go under the knife a lot...? - GN) and people are impressed by its result. It starts to be popular in Asia.

Good for your skin... Then it turns out to be a pretty good make-up base and foundation as well. AWESOME.
BRTC

The original brand was BRTC, though Skinfood, Etude, Missha and Elianto have them now as well. Other brands are Skin79 and Lioele. There's this Singaporean chick who is obsessed with them... on the bright side, she gives really good bb cream reviews.

I wanted to try BRTC BB cream, but no one is selling samples yet (dun wanna get the 2ml sample -___-;). I got Lioele instead. It's quite good. Makes my face look dewy and bright and less oily. I like it a lot.

In make-up mode. Minus mascara.
Make me look very the Korean, kan?


Only, the trouble with products from Korea, it would work best if you're fair to medium. I'm a little tanned (because I just got back from Lang Tengah with ML and her buddy, Jonny... will post abt that soon!!!). I like being tanned actually. IMO it's a really rich and sensual tone to possess. But just for one period of my life, I'm gonna try to make the tanned area of my body to resemble the tone of my stomach (the proof that I'm actually born fair wtf). So I got;

8) L'oreal UV Perfect (SPF 50 UVB, UVA PA+++) in Transparent Skin
9) nanowhite cell moist whitenor - actually this is to hydrate your skin
10) NIVEA body Whitening Milk Repair

I really want to try BRTC, because I hear that it blends into your natural skin tone. I'm debating whether to get a full tube of Lioele or to try out BRTC first....

Omg. I'm turning into my own worst nightmare -_____-;.

Well, in all honesty, I didn't splurge to the point of my wallet begging for sweet mercy. Even though someone up there has been screwing up my life a lil, that someone at -least- had the decency to do it the time when massive sale is going on. (I don't know if that's good or bad, because part of retail therapy joy is spending a decent amount of your hard-earned money for ultimate satisfaction)

(OOT: when my mom gets depressed, she starts buying excessive street food or indulging in fancy mancy bakery stuff. But she won't eat it. She makes people around her eat them -_________-;. Cunning, but smart.)

(OOT: reminds me, I also tend to eat expensive Japanese food when I'm depressed. The funniest part is, this time when I did, someone paid for my bill because he lost to me in sudoku ahahahahha innocent victim wtf. Sorry la, I really didn't know he'll keep his word...)

(UHM: Ya I know I say at first, 'don't ask, don't ask," but in the end I'll tell anyway -__-;. Ultimate fail at being coy and mysterious)

Maybe it's another of my fleeting obsession (past obsessions includes dabbling in dressmaking, candlemaking, modern dancing, computer gaming, making beads curtains, sewing... and so on). Just a clarification though... I don't think I'll EVER get super obsessed with make-up to the point of recognising the brushes' codes -____-;. I've been watching make-up tutorials, and they would hold up a brush and go, "Okay, this is MAC 219. We'll be using this for blablabla."

OKAY MOVING ON!

I was doing freelance for a friend. Then he was asking me, "Hey, do you want a Nintendo DS?" And I declined because it's not like I'm into that sort of thing. I mean, I do play games, but never serious enough to actually consider getting a PSP or a Nintendo DS. But then he took it out and it was PINK~~~~

-MELTS-

So now I'm an accidental owner of an SD-less, no-game-yet Nintendo DS Lite in Coral Pink.
See la, my life damn celaka, do freelance supposed to have money coming in wan, but in the end, I have to fork out money to get the SD card and games orz.

I must make sure that my brain doesn't die T__T. Bimbohood wasn't my childhood dream wtf.

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Other randomness

+ Have a look at this picture. See anything worth mentioning?

I will love you long long time if you
say it's the plug behind me wtf


... I has a huge gigantorrr pimple on my forehead. RIGHT SMACK MIDDLE RED AND BULGING. My colleagues keep pointing that out for me. As well as students who are close to me wtf. And my friends too -___-;. Really celaka lo... The first time I used the BB cream, I asked my colleague if he notice anything diff about my face. And he just poked my pimple -____-;. why pimple whyyyyy.

Oh well, don't wanna be arsed with it. It'll go soon. (It'd better disappear pronto!!)

+ Today my colleague asked me on gtalk if i needed a lift back home.
Then she went offline -___-;.

+ Office is sorta quiet and slightly boring. Because an evil lovable creature hath left the building. She is also known as my lembu wtf. More on that in a future post ;P

Friday, August 08, 2008

Farewell, my sweet flip-phone

... And we gather here today to mourn a loss. (we = only me wtf)

I lost my darling SE W300i back in May in a mysterious, wtf way. Imagine this; I had it when I was in Bangsar LRT station... then it was gone by the time I reached Taman Bahagia station. It was nesting nicely in my bag, -within- another bag. It wasn't rush hour, so it wasn't packed at all. One jialat thing was that I had it in silent mode because I was running out of battery -____-;.

Perhaps I misplaced it. I'm still in denial, okay, so don't force me to admit that wtf ;_________;. Anyway, the ticket counter guy was really helpful, and tried helping me locate it by asking his colleagues to check the train and station. Obviously, with no avail.

Surprisingly, I was just like.... -shrug-. I wasn't reduced to a hysterical lump. Didn't fume at the gods, or lament tragically. It was pretty peaceful for me actually. Yes, I lost all my contacts, funny messages (my brother declaring that he will eat my dog Mylo) and also the pictures (like, my first cupcake attempt, where I made the icing too watery and it overflowed and resembled a uterus wtf)... and yet, it's sort of a fresh start. I felt sad, but relieved. My loss is not as drastic as a house burnt to crisps, but still.

I'm definitely one of those people who love hoarding memories, and in a way, the burden of it. I'm not saying it's bad, but it pulls you back at times. Sometimes a clean slate allows you to run freer. You can't run like the wind when you're dragging your house of memories behind you. And you can't let go. Every step, something is added to the pile. Then when the rope snaps, and whatever you're pulling along is gone. After you deal with the shock and sadness, maybe we could appreciate the blank state of things.

I started saying this in the very physical sense, but it sort of darts back and forth to the intangible side of it. Makes me think of this movie that I really like, Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind. Where the main character went through a process of erasing his memory of a girlfriend he loved because she hurt him really bad by erasing her memory of him. But as the erasing process was going on, he was watching the deletion... and in his horror, they are also erasing the memories most dear to him. Despite all the arguments and sadness, there will be the sweetest moments you've ever experienced... and to lose that?

Anyway, that's another blog entry. This is supposed to be a farewell to my handphone, dammit! I have yet to buy a new one; instead I'm using my old Nokia 3330 (because I'm that cheap wtf). My mom's phone is more technologically advanced than mine orz.

The thing I missed most after losing my camera handphone is that I can no longer take random pictures inconspicuously.

Like inconsiderate idiots on a train.
Had to wait till the train was less crowded before I could take this photo wtf. Full tram, and she had her stuff on both sides of her. Oi!


Criminal eye box for you!

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Si Gemuk!!!!

Fat hammie is fat.


NOM NOM NOM!
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Brains for dinner.

But mom doesn't want us to know.

... much better.

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Madie acting cute effortlessly.

I catch her to camwhore wtf.

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There is this Japanese food store in The Gardens. My cousin and I love love love going there. Usually we aim for the near expiry ones because it's cheaper wtf. Also, one time we managed to get their Hokkaido milk at RM2 because it was expiring the next day, and omg, that milk tasted so friggin' good okay!! It's rich without being nauseating... We have since aimed to get the milk when it's near expiry, but oftentimes, we're too lazy to keep track of their shipments and too poor to buy it at normal price....

Honestly though, any slip in self-restraint would result in my bankruptcy.

Eat first, take picture later wtf.

One trip's haul

.... we sauce for you....